Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Favorite Quotes

I am posting some of my favorite quotes today. Please comment with your favorite quotes or Bible verses that help you overcome life's bumpy roads.

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

"If He brings you to it, He will see you through it"

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again.'"

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Networking and Waiting

We had a good support group last night. It was great to see another couple realize their dream. It was great to learn about the entrustment ceremony and see pictures. The agency is trying to help the couples in the program hang onto hope and increase outreach. I have decided I have two options. I can stick my head in the ground and focus on other areas of my life, hoping that good things happen when you least expect it, or I can increase my networking and figure out other ways to get our name and situation out in the public. It may be the snow and the dreariness of winter, but the waiting is really taking its toll on me. Here's hoping the spring brings the news of a great little bundle of joy.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Family, Friends and Babies

In the past few months, I have learned of 10 people who are pregnant or recently had a baby. Today, I found out that a couple in our support group had a successful placement. I am truly happy for everyone who is expecting or recently had an addition to their family. When I told friends that I am happy for these people, people were surprised about my 'gracious attitude'. Do I have a gracious attitude? Yes, I am happy for friends and family members who have their dream of a child. Just because I am happy for them does not mean that I am not sad for me. I try hard to present a positive front, to take everything in stride and not let on that this waiting is eating me up inside. I don't let on that everytime I hear of a pregnancy I have a little crying fit. Everyday I walk through the door I check my messages, hoping for a call. Everyday I'm disappointed. So am I gracious? I suppose, because I am happy for those who are able to have their precious bundle of joy and I have no right to take that happiness away from them. At the same time, please know that despite the happy face I put on the outside, I am crying inside.